Ejected!

All I can is R.I.P. To that individual and the family who's gonna have to deal with the lost of that person. Such visual of watching someone being ejected out of their car and flying around like a rag doll can turn the most sane individual to the most insane human being. It'll damage you mentally. Not the site anyone wants to see but reality strikes and it'll prove it can happen. Damn today sucks.

Why are players more focused on their brand than winning?

Money!!!!! Players know once their careers are over these basketball organizations aren't going to take care of them! They know that money is going to be very beneficial for them in the future and the more they can accumulate during their careers the better their futures will be. I'm all for players getting paid especially the ones who deserve those humongous contracts. You can look at it either way you're getting paid so just focus on basketball but I look at it from the perspective that if there's an opportunity for you to make extra money and possibly have a career ready and waiting now for you once your career is over then why not do it. Players gotta be focused on their lives after sports because the teams and the fans won't care about you once you're long gone.

The drugs usually takes over! By: Omar Black

Some of the worlds potentially great people usually succumb to drugs! Losing a job, not getting accepted to the college of your dreams, losing a loved one, or even a failed relationship. It can drive the most sanest person into depression which can lead to all types of drugs being counted on just so they can maintain themselves. For Jessie drugs became his best friend the person that he counts on when that friend is destroying him both inside and out and financially it's taking chunks of money right out of his pocket. All it took was once when he tried it in the past and now he just wants it to escape mentally from the harsh reality he lives which he only has himself to blame. He turned to drugs because he sees it as the best way to relax himself whenever he begins to stress out about his situation. A lot of people can get over a lost or whatever their situation might be but Jessie hasn't and never will. Some people are able to avoid it and not allow depression to kick in. They don't succumb to drugs but Jessie is one of those people who does succumb to it. He's prayed for him to defeat the addiction but he's still in love with the high it gives him. Either he will be able to kick his addiction or he won't but it's his life at the end of the day which is why his family has given up on him. They're just waiting for the day they receive the phone call saying that his life is over..... To be continued

I'm tired of living small dawg, I gotta be major!

My family is filled with talent. God given abilities that is spread throughout us some gifted with musical talents, some with acting, writing, editing, speaking, modeling, singing, dancing, real estate, marketing etc. Thats the reason why I feel not only myself but the people around me my cousins the many of cousins that i have from here to Jamaica to England to Canada and Asia. My family is big and I want to travel to see them all. I don't want to care about the cost of the ticket I just want to be able to hop on the plane, or the bus or the train hahaha! choo! choo! I want to see this whole world and God has possessed me with a rare dual God given ability to write and speak which I know can change lives and even change the world damn right I said it I have the ability well the capability of changing the world. I know that I can influence the evil to do good and the good to do better. Why? Am I arrogant? No I just know what talent I have been given and it was specially hand crafted by the Lord! I deserve better and the better I deserve I will bless those around me in achieving the best they deserve! I'm not stingy whatsoever I am not selfish at all I am a giver I am loyal to the ones who are loyal to me. I don't ask for anything in return all I want is your appreciation. Not too many people think and see the world the way that I do. I just hope the people around me understands that I do it for the love and appreciation I have for them. I don't do it to be noticed or to be talked good about thats not me. If I fucks with you. I will go above and beyond for you. And if I really fucks with you theres nothing i wouldn't do for you!

Drake "I need acknowledgment if I got it then tell me I got it then."

People hate expressing their feelings I don't get it. If someone means the world to you then tell them I know they want to hear it. Some people tell everyone their value to them but no one cares to return the favor to them so that's when it turns into a relationship or friendship that lacks communication. Some people would rather you acknowledge how much you appreciate and care for them thus they can relish in it. Most people don't speak on it once they hear the acknowledgement expressed from the person they care for they just embrace it. Not telling someone their value to you can cause them to take a step away from you. Note to self if you fuck with someone then let me know whether you think they should already know how much you care for them or not. What's good doesn't need to be explained but people are emotional and they pay attention to everything including your words and even though actions speaks volumes words don't fall on deaf ears either. Ever heard of being conned some people like that they just love being told their value to you whether you're sincere or not. It's a few simple words that can make someone run through a brick wall for you so just be aware sometimes it's good to tell someone how much you appreciate them.

Good women are rare! By: Omar Black

Not all women are good women and not all good women are the right women for you! Jordan has found a good woman for the first time in his life. He's constantly thinks and wonders why doesn't she yet to hold the title of being mines yet? Why is it still unofficial when we both know that it should be official? Why is it that so many people that aren't even suitable for marriage usually are the ones who get married while the ones who are suited for marriage don't? Whatever the situation might be it's as though the world we live in accepts the worlds biggest sinners the most where the good suffers. They say the good dies young so what does that mean the evil dies old. That's a quote I never truly figured out and still haven't. If that's the rule of life that means the evil rule while the good struggle just to stay good in this life of sin. Never will my number change but I hope the situation changes because at this point there's only one thing preventing us from being together and it sucks. You can't tell me there's no solution to a problem that we both want to be fixed. We have to figure it out because my life will be better with you than without you. However if I have to be without you I'll just have to make the necessary adjustments but why not have you when we both know you're the one for me and I'm the one for you and this isn't a fairytale this is reality and reality has worked out to the point where two strangers have found their soulmate and I've done what I need to do to make sure you're the only person I want and the only person I even think about now it's time you figure out what exactly you need to do in order for us to work. My part is done im just waiting on you and unfortunately we don't live forever so I can't wait forever but I will wait awhile for you and that while is just depending on your effort to make sure we can work.

Cam Newton!

Doubted, hated upon, looked at as a villain, told isn't good enough, they said he couldn't grasp an offense and understand a playbook basically saying he's not smart enough. They said he's wasn't good enough to be the first overall pick do what you do and smile at them haters Cam. There's no player on earth that I want to hoist the Vince Lombardi trophy more than Cam Newton. I'm sick of the doubt, I'm sick of hearing mobile quarterbacks don't last stop it just say what you really feel you don't think black quarterbacks can make it. Aaron Rodgers the best pure thrower in the league runs and scrambles just like Cam, Russell and RG3. No disrespect to that bad man but those quarterbacks were thrown into the fire whereas Aaron Rodgers sat behind a legend and learned plus completely had his throwing motion retooled and upgraded. Give Cam, RG3, or Russell what Aaron Rodgers had a Brett Favre to watch from a distance Fuck if they're friends or not this is a business you owe no one your friendship especially someone who's coming to replace you. February 7, 2016 just two days after my birthday. The only thing I want to see that night is Cam Newton with the Super Bowl he's going to be the soon to be third player in history to win both a national championship and a super bowl. Panther Nation let's go! Cam let's do this bring that trophy home to Carolina where it rightfully belongs this season and seasons to come.

You no longer exist in my world!

cutting ties for some seems so hard to do and normally for me it's effortless I do it without thinking about that person ever again. But for some reason this one person took longer to jump out of my mind than it normally does to remove someone out of my mind once I decide to get rid of them. No longer am I holding on for hope because the arguments and the back and forth as well as the he say she say bullshit is all pointless. Let's be real if you believe someone else's word over mines then I don't want a damn thing to do with you. There's no holding on for me and forget hoping and wishing for you to change your mind im done. I could care less about you or your problems and your issues at this point. Life isn't about arguing with someone constantly to prove why you deserve them or prove something just isn't factual. You can save that for the birds. I'm done the old me is back. I have to cut ties and cut ties quickly that me has returned and I'm more ruthless than ever. Whoever doesn't need to be around me will soon dissapear from my presence God will remove them. The ones that do will prove to me they do and that's all that matters.

Shout out to all the people that believe in love. The people that don't enjoy being miserable sooner or later!

People act as though love doesn't exist like it can't happen more than once in a person's life. They feel as though it happened once with someone and didn't workout but it can't happen again when little do they realize the best thing that's ever happened to them is the second person they're falling head over heels for. You learn from your mistakes and sometimes you have to fall in love then fall out of love just to fall right back into it in order for you to find your soulmate. I guess that's how this world works. Sometimes you have to hit your lowest of your low just so that you can bounce back and have happiness. Let's be real life isn't promised and tomorrow isn't guaranteed and no one knows what the afterlife holds so why not just enjoy life and live it to the fullest? I am and I will and I always have and I'm so thankful for those that I have around me. Be miserable non lovers or the ones who's given up. For the ones who haven't pursue the love of your life and have no regrets doing it just don't be a stalker now no one needs or wants that. If there's no chance leave the situation alone if there's a chance then go all out and pursue the potential love of your life!

I'm your sin, well make me your blessing! By: Omar Black

For Pete he knows that he's not that bad of a person hell compared to some he's not a bad person at all. However for some reason to Brandy he is her sin so she decided to get rid of him. It's a slap in the face because he knows that she can fight harder to make him her blessing. "Good things like this don't come around that often" he says to himself often. A woman like her and a guy like him don't normally come into contact with one another that often and he feels their connection is rare. Therefore great relationships like them two together he feels are rare. He went to her house on a lonely Friday night to see her and explain to her what she means to him. She avoided him for weeks after the breakup. She didn't want to see him. She didn't care to have her old emotions reemerge again and her life once again become complicated. " I know you have to think about me because I'm thinking about you" he said while holding a handful of red roses. "Valentine's Day just passed you should've tried then" she said as she just tried to give him a chance. She stood their in silence waiting for Pete to speak. "It's like having a roadblock dropped in between us and it's up to us to figure things out on how to get around it." he said. "Who knows if it'll ever be resolved?" "Just know that I want you!" "And regardless I have hope now and someday in the future I hope you carry my last name!" Once again he had her with his words. He brought back all of her old positive emotions about him and he knows that he has won her back without her uttering a word. He summed up by saying "I'm your sin, well make me your blessing" and for Brandy her heart was his all over again..... to be continued!

February 5 By: Omar Black

Aquarius season has dawned upon us all and now is the time for me to get ready to celebrate another birthday. Thank you God for giving me life into a new year and God willing I will live to see my next birthday which is coming up really soon. I don't have any real plans I might spend that entire day recording music or writing pages to my novel. That evening and night will be a different story and the best thing about it there's no plans thats on my agenda so anything is a possibility. All I know is that this birthday will be a billion times better than my last! Let's get it.

God has to have a sense of humor

I don't care what anyone says God has a humorous way of removing someone or something out of your life then just bringing them right back into your life whether you realize you miss them or you just need them or Fate just brings you together. It's happened to me personally several times. It's never a dire need for that person but it's more like a realization that that persons worthy of having around in your life. I know already that she's worthy hopefully time apart allowed her to see that I am. God is hilarious he's the ultimate comedian. He'll remove someone from your life then place them back into your life and you guys continue your relationship like you've never skipped a beat.

My 100th blog!

My 200th blog will come faster than it has taken me to write my first 100 which took more than two year of my life to write. Now I've changed up completely I'm a writer and writing is what I do best so why not do it daily. Besides New Year's Day where I had a little too much fun I'm going to write at least one blog everyday for the next entire year. My goal is to build my fan base and let the world know it's possible to write one blog a day. My regret is that I didn't write one on New Year's Day which is why I decided to write a couple of blogs New Year's Eve just before my partying with my family began which was incredible. A bunch of Jamaicans celebrating New Years in America is a memorable experience. All I can say is check my blog daily because everyday God willing I will release a brand ne fresh blog for the world to enjoy whether it's about my life, someone else's life, something I've heard or read about that's what I'll blog about on that day. So relax and enjoy my blog! It'll be one brand new one everyday.

People over analyze texting!

Look how long it's taking she/he to respond! Why is she/he responding so fast? Did she/he meant it how we think they meant it? The last one is my favorite. Oh it sounded as if you meant it in a bad way or you were being mean. Really are you kidding me? How can a text show my emotions? That's why they invented emojis trust me if I felt a certain way you would know and stop reading into text so much people. At first I always thought texts were a blessing. Instead of calling certain people all I have to do is send them a message over my phone to their phone. Quick, short and simple is what I thought it was at first until I began realizing it's more complex and can ruin relationships more than just talking to someone. Through normal conversations you can hear the emotions in someone's voice. They speak loud, they may speak boastfully or they may be more reserved in other words they speak in a way that they sound depressed you know somethings on their mind. For whatever reason people seem to think that texts are good but I've already realized it's not good at all. It in fact can do more harm than good just based on the fact that people are emotional and they can read into things more than they actually should. People tend to overthink things for whatever reason they feel their opinions are facts when that's complete b.s. No your opionions aren't the only ones that matter and no your opinions are just that your opinions. It's not a fact it's just a hypothesis unless you can prove its true. Talk more people that's how relationships succeeded in the old days and that's how they succeed now. A text "hello" or "good morning" and "goodnight" is fine but don't make it your life. It's annoying and it can make people think you're just not interested in talking to them so you would rather just text them. People read into texts too much and it's not beneficial. For some people it's amazing but I'm telling you my friend it's not that good at all.

Defense wins championships and so does having future Hall of Fame players and coaches! Part 1

These arguments will continue until the end of time. Who's the greatest pro quarterback of all time. I'm going with... Well it doesn't matter who I'm going with but it does well atleast to me and my Fans it does. One of my favorite quarterbacks in the game now is Phillip Rivera because he's a badass and he just doesn't care. He has a talk no nonsense and I'll put you in your place demeanor and I respect that to the utmost but is he in my top five or top ten quarterbacks of all time list hell no. What makes a champion a champion and what makes a player great is championships. Regular season statistics matter however when it comes down to the players where a championship is within reach that's when the legends separate themselves from everyone else. Who deserves to go on the Mount Rushmore of pro quarterback? Names like Brett Favre, Aaron Rodgers, Drew Bree's, Joe Montana, Terry Bradshaw, Tom Brady, Eli Manning, Peyton Manning, Dan Marino, Troy Aikman, and a few others names are always tossed around as who's the greatest pro quarterback of all time discussion still continues and will always continue and every list will be over analyzed and dissected and just criticized by anyone who doesn't agree with whatever list you have. If you add a mobil quarterback then someone will lose their mind saying their not a real quarterback because they run almost as much as they pass the ball. Let's be real we can look at basketball. Kevin Durant is a shooter whereas Lebron is a passer and a guy who can bully his way to the run where he thrives. They play the same position they just do things in a different way. Does it make one player better than the other yes but it depends on how you look at it. Some people love scorers they love to see someone shoot it doesn't matter if they can't defend for anything. Steph Curry is a shooter just a natural shooter, Chris Paul is good at getting to the whole it's all about what you like but championships says a lot about a player and it leaves a legacy. People love Michael Jordan the undisputed greatest player of all time in my eyes some people like to argue Kobe or Wilt or Russell or whoever. Great players make championships happen. Future Hall of Famers can make a good team great. I'll take Peyton Manning over Terry BRadshaw because  Peyton Manning is a great quarterback. Terry Bradshaw was always surrounded by legends and future Hall of Famers. He was surrounded by a future hall of fame coach. To me that takes away his legacy as a great quarterback. It's like a quarterback at Alabama they're surrounded by greatness so there's no true way of knowing if they're really great quarterbacks that's why they don't win the Heisman. Let's just saying having greatness around you can make you actually look greater than you actually are. That's why Terry Bradshaw isn't in my top five. This is the first of four blogs and I will go through my list of greatest pro quarterbacks of all time.

The truth isn't what you believe happened or what you think might have happened!

We all like to believe what we think is the truth is actually the truth. With no facts behind it we just like to assume that our way of thinking is perfect and it's the right way. We read blogs, watch and read tmz, and watch shows like extra, inside edition, Wendy Williams, the view, the whatever whatever whatever who gives a flying fuck! All I know is that facts are facts and opinions are opinions and gossip is gossip just like assumptions is nothing but assumptions which is all as you would put it bullshit. Thinking what might've happened is just that a thought it's not a fact. It's has not been proven by facts just gossip. So many people live their lives based off of what they think happened or what they believe might have happened. That is the reason why someone can get acquitted for all charges no matter how big or small the case is but still gets looked at as nothing more than a criminal.  Stop being opinionated and started realizing all of what you're thinking is hear say that's why not everyone can be a lawyer because if anyone could be a lawyer with no evidence to prove someone did a crime those think what happened and assumed what might've happened people would throw everyone in jail for life with no facts behind it just opinions and assumption.

We're a Nation that's divided. But why?

We're divided by neighborhoods, upper class, middle class, and lower class. Everything divides us. Colors divide some gangs. Symbols divide neighborhoods. Political party association can turn friends into enemies. Some people with money look down upon those who aren't as financially fortunate as they are. In addition to that some people divide themselves by race, age, sex and other things like the tax bracket they fall under. It's kind of like you're not good enough or you don't exist in my world if you don't make as much money as I make. Let's be honest and let's be real we're a nation that's divided and we unknowingly and knowingly know that we divide ourselves for various reasons from other people. It's African Americans who deprecate themselves or act as though because they're light skinned they're better than blacks who are darker than they are. I don't know why we do but we divide ourselves for no reason. Instead of trying to grow together and trying to work on getting to know each other better and why we believe, think and do the things we do we just shy away from the issues at hand and avoid each other all together. I don't get it but it is what it is I guess. Like Tupac said so many years ago "somethings will never change!" I couldn't agree with that saying anymore because it's the truth!

No matter what you helped me grow!

I'll never hate you. I'll never have ill feelings towards you because in a short period of time you helped me grow. You helped me mature. You helped me become a better man. I know you're going to read this and my number will never change despite what I said I'll always be there for you I'm only one call away. There's not much that's needed to be said besides the fact that I appreciated your time, company and the good moments we've shared. I'll appreciate it for life. I'm here for you no matter what.

Ashamed!

Damn the first time I heard someone just completely say they're ashamed of themselves and it wasn't easy to hear. She sat next to me her skinned peeled as she itched away at her neck. I tried my best not to look but she yelled for the nurse over and over again I could help but look at her. The first time in awhile I felt uncomfortable but I kept my cool. "What are you here for" she asked. I could see that she wanted a conversation but I want to avoid talking to anyone besides the doctors and nurses when I come to the hospital but this time it was for my friend so I really didn't care to talk to anyone but she insisted. She asked me once more and I had to reply "I'm just here waiting for a friend." I was hopeful this conversation would end but she wasn't thinking how I was thinking. "I'm ashamed of myself how I look, how long it's taking me to be able to walk on my own, how much pain I'm in daily." It's the first time I've ever heard someone just say their ashamed of everything about themselves. I've heard maybe this or maybe that makes me skittle ashamed but this was the first time I heard someone just sound defeated. She told me about the incident that caused half of bed body to be covered with burn marks and I it wasn't a good site to watch because the flames that danced on her skin made sure it left its mark. I thought about my situation and my problems and they can't compare to hers. She has
Thousands in medical fees she owes and to make matters worst her ex boyfriend is the reason she's deformed the way she is. Whatever they went through she wouldn't discuss but she just said "life is painful and you'll endure some kind of pain whether it's emotional, mental, physical or psychological as long as you're alive you'll go through some kind of hurt." We discussed so much more but this lady sat down and talked to me for a reason and whatever that reason was in more focused than I've ever been. I keep my circle small already and I'm not afraid to trim off some unwanted fat if necessary.

September 14, 2009

The worst day of my life! The day my life changed. My life was headed for so much promise so much hopes a deal on the table that would've been life altering but I decided to turn it down because I lost the most important person in my life. My mother. Mom I love you so much. September 14, 2009 a day that'll forever haunt me. Mom! With you I'm strong without you in fighting to maintain my strength. You taught me well I just wanted more time on earth with you. Time for you to see my first born, time for you to see me graduate from college, time for you to see me become a man. Although you're watching over me your physical presence was like none other. The greatest person ever is you. Loyal, kind hearted, sweet, generous, loving and just a great human being. In striving hard to reach your greatness. I miss you so much. I care for about you even more. I love you mom! God willing we shall unite one day in the future and it shall last for all eternity.

Moving seems like a good option!

I've thought it over for quite sometime and it's coming up to that time I set out for myself. I gave myself a two year limit from when I moved back to miami from another state. I told myself if I'm where I want to be I'll stay. The time is quickly approaching and I have yet to reach the goal I set out for myself ever since I returned back to Miami. Once that month hits I'm gone and it's on to the next state. It's hard to stay away from my home state but the time is coming where I need to make a choice to better my future. A new city in a new state seems like the best decision for me. I refuse to stay here and not achieve the gwhat I set out for myself to

DAMN!

Life see life all I can say to you is DAMN!

I agree with Skip Bayless take kicking out of the game of football!

Im sick and tired of watching great or potentially championship winning teams lose a game because of a kicker. Your entire season resides on the foot of a kicker who's been sitting down and pretending to stretch on the sideline during the entire game while you put your all into every play smashing into your rival over and over again just to benefit your team. Imagine having your entire season rest on the foot of a kicker. Every season it seems to be not just one big game but multiple big games that's lost on the foot of a kicker. I would lose my cool and explode and unleash my anger in the direction of the kicker who lost the game because they couldn't make a kick. A kick that would've extended our season. A kick that would've put us one game closer to the championship. Kicks ruin momentum. Look at the Redskins they were up 11-0 nothing today against the packers the missed the kick and went downhill from there. No ones talking about that but that's what happened. Dudes were on the sidelines saying he missed the extra point are you kidding me. He missed an automatic practice all of the time kick. Trust me those were the thoughts of some of those players and it showed in how effortlessly Greenbay came back. Don't get me wrong Aaron Rodgers is the best quarterback in the league you can't shut him out however you can't tell me that the missed extra point kick didn't have something to do with it. I know it did period. I don't need to do any interviews or write about it over and over again just to get some attention I know it contributed to why washington lost today. Hey NFL do us all a favor and get rid of kicking in football the only kicking needed is the kick offs but with the many concussed athletes who get concussions on kick off we may need to say enough is enough and let's get rid of kick in football. It'll be weird at first but sooner than later we will all get used to it.

Crying on the sideline!

Is it right? Is it wrong? When a man tears his acl, breaks a bone in their body and suffers a season ending injury is it acceptable for them to cry on the sideline? How can you judge a man who's gonna spend the next six months to a year of his life rehabbing? A man who's being taken Away from the sport they know all too well and loves too much? You're not gonna deal with the rehabilitation they're gonna have to go through. You're not gonna be told you're gonna get cut or traded away because of an injury. People don't see things from that player's point of view when I do. The only exception if it's a player who's prone to injury. It gets to the point where you have to give up on him. There's no other choice but to cut ties with that player. Regardless of how good of a person they are. But when it's that vet who's contract is expiring or that rookie who's been on the bench all season until four weeks ago when they made that game changing play now they're on the up and up. However now they're facing a season and possibly career ending injury. An injury that might halt their career. An injury that might prevent them from feeding their family for quite sometime. An injury that might put them out of their league and place them in a position where they must work a normal 9 to 5 just to get by. That's when that college degree comes in handy some may say. But let's be realistic not everyone is built to stand up to the roadblock better known as college. I don't know but if a man suffers an injury and goes to the sideline and cries once they find out what the injury is or just the pain they're dealing with then it's not my place to say if it's right or wrong for a man to cry on the sideline.

I see the world from everyone's perspective!

This is why I'm different I'm not one track minded I never have and I will never be. I know how it is to have it all and I know how it is to not have anything and anyone at all. I understand the pain of a man who hasn't eaten in three days and I understand the triumph of being able to pay the bills of both you and your girlfriend without ever worrying about how much the bills cost. I'm a writer in required to see the world from everyone's point of view. I'm also a person who's seen it all and done it all in only twenty six years of living. I'm not one track minded like a lot of you people living on this earth. I'm opinionated but I can understand the opinions and beliefs of others. But I'll still challenge your beliefs if you challenge mines. Open up your mind people and know that this world just isn't all about you in fact it's all about you and the rest of the people on earth so when you really think about it you probably don't even matter that much well you actually don't matter that much!

What happened if everything we ever thought was true really doesn't exist?

I don't like living by the what ifs but sometimes in life you have to sometimes in life you have no choice. What if everything in life that you thought was right really just doesn't exist to begin with? Religion ended something that could've been incredible in my life. So I have to ask that question what if her beliefs just is inaccurate? What if her thoughts on everything through the mind of a higher being just doesn't matter or even exist? It's probably over for good I have hope but I have to be realistic. I can't tell her what to do I can control her in anyway the only thing that I can do is lay everything out there but I'm no match for a person's religious beliefs. I just hope that one day it's discovered that we can make it work and there's nothing wrong with us attempting to make us workout. I have hope and I know you do too!

Kate beckinsale!

I'm not gonna lie to you it's something about this woman that I just find attractive. Right behind her is Charlize Theron. Yeah I have my top five black, white, Hispanic and even Asian women list. Kate beckinsale just happens to fall on top of my hottest white women list. She's attractive, elegant, sexy and most importantly she carries herself with such grace and maturity that it makes her even more attractive to me. Im not going to say much besides she's just does it for me.

Kid or no kid you're the right woman for me!

I had my doubts due to past relationships with women with children. No relationship I've had in the past with a woman with a child or children have ever worked out for me until now. In the past I've dated women who were confused about whether they really can move on from their baby's father. I've  had conversations with women who've told me they've hooked up with their child's father on several occasions after they broke up. I've always thought about the fact that if there's one person on earth who a person can connect with it's the person they had a child with especially if they were in San actual relationship before they had their child. However my mindset has changed because of this woman particular woman who I'll refer to as heaven sent. She's the opposite of the girls that I've been dating prior to me meeting her. She's well educated, she's a woman and she handles her responsibilities. God has brought her into my life for a reason and he's brought me into her life for a reason. This woman is simply amazing and she's opened up my eyes so much so that I can truthfully say that her having a child is a positive instead of a negative. She's made me realize that if the love is there that's all I truly care for and I accept her child as much as I accept her. I can't win over her heart without winning over her child's heart and that's what I plan on doing. That's precisely what I will do because I've received a blessing who's opened my eyes up wider than it's ever been opened up. I thank the lord for blessing me with you. I'm grateful and I'm going to prove it to my soon to be queen that she's perfect and she's worth my time, energy, sweat, tears and most importantly my love.

I should turn my phone off for a month just to get rid of unnecessary people!

one thing about me is that I don't need anyone besides my sisters, my nieces my family and that significant other as long as she's completely invested in me. Sometimes I think turning my phone off would be a positive. I don't need my phone yeah emergencies can happen but most phones nowadays allow you to call 911 regardless if your phone is off or not. So I'm highly considering saying fuck my phone and just cutting off a bunch of people because I don't need you. You bring unneeded drama into my life. You involve me in your bullshit and I don't get it but it's all good. I have damn near seventy first cousins so truthfully I don't need friends so I don't need you!

You had a true friend but you lost Em!

Never in my life would I think the closes or one of the closes to me would think so negatively of me. It's all good though I'm an Aquarius this is who I am I bounce back and recover from every and all situations stronger and mentally greater than ever! You doubt me I show you you messed up! I have to be one of the nose generous kind hearted people on earth however people take that genuity and kindness to weakness and once I figure that out its a must I cut you the fuck off! You're nothing to me you're nonexistent I gotta be cut throat to you because you thought so badly of me when I give you no reason to think badly of me. I took someone out of nowhere to reveal the truth to me. It took someone to let me know what's up because instead of telling me straight up as a man you go behind me back but we homies though! You go behind my back but I'm your nigga you fuck with me a million obviously not if you think I'm such a terrible person you would have thoughts and assumptions about me and talking to others about your opinions of me when you should know it's gonna get back to me one way or the other. I just ask myself why pretend to Fuck with me? Why pretend that we're cool when you know that we're not? I'm doing me from now on and if I fuck with you I fuck with you but now I have a caution signal because niggas have motives nowadays. Niggas can't do things out of generosity like nigga what the fuck! You can't be real with me I can't fuck with you and that's a billion! It's do me season and I'm riding for me 100%. My girl I'm all in it for you as long as you're all in it for me! This is just the beginning of my amazing journey. Peace out for now "I'm gonna make it" like Jadakiss said.

I'm not going to lie I'm a kid at hearT

I don't care what you have to say when it comes to me I'm a kid at heart. I enjoy cartoons on occasion and playing video games. Do I reflect on my childhood and wish I could relive those moments of course I do. First of all I don't have to pay any bills and most importantly I get to relive the special moments I've had with my mother. May God continue to watch over her soul I love you mom! If there's any point in time that I can relive and stay stuck in that moment it would be my childhood not only because I have my mother who kept me safe, kept my stomach filled, kept a roof over my head and most importantly kept her love in my life. My mother is the definition of an Extraordinary woman. In addition to that I would get to relive those great moments in time that I shared with my sister who is an amazing woman and who is also courageous. I love you sis and if I've never said it before I'm saying it now you mean everything to me and you motivate me to be a great uncle to the nieces I have because you're a incredible mother to the children you have one of which is soon to be 4.0 high school graduate the other who is headed in the same direction and who knows maybe even stardom. I adore you sis. I'm a kid at heart I guess that's why I get along so well with all of my nieces. I understand them all and love and treat them all equally and with a ton of respect. I don't approach them as their father thats not who I am. I approach them as their big brother someone they can talk to about any and everything. Someone they know will be in their corner no matter what. I look at myself as a missing piece to the puzzle of a lot of people's happiness. If it's a void you need filled I'm that person. And for that special woman who entered my life recently I see nothing short of an amazing future with you. Let the journey begin.