Say bye bye to the past cause I'm moving on!

It's time and I'm going to just live life to the fullest. Losing loved ones is hard and becomes a reality check. Therefore I know moving on is my best option. I can't think about you anymore you have to be erased from my memory in order for me to move on and that's what I did. You're permanently deleted therefore there's nothing left for me to hold onto. There's billions of people on earth and they want to live so why shouldn't I. I'm going to live, travel, vacation worldwide and most importantly move out this country the minute I get enough money to do so. At the end they say family and friends will be all you have left no matter what. When a relationship ends your family will still be there your true friends will be there. Therefore you're not needed and anything that came with you is no longer required. I guess they say if you cant get it here go some place else which sounds fucked up but it is what it is I guess. It's do me season im not worried about anyone else so fuck it!

Your heart defect ruined me!

I lost someone so important, so wise, so noble, so incredible, one of the loves of my life and she was no older than five years old. Born with a heart defect that took you away from the world and left you in the hospital 90 percent of the life God gave you on this earth. Your purpose was to inspire, bring a family together that was torn apart due to various reasons and most importantly remind us all that love still exists. Blood made us related but the love made us truly family. It crushes me without you here but God has a bigger and better purpose for you. I know it has to be to bring light into the lives of people who's life is only filled with darkness. You're a diamond and you shine brightly. I just want you to know that I miss you and I will make sure you're not forgotten and anyone that's going through what you went through will have a better chance at surviving because of you. You brought awareness to the unaware. You brought smiles and laughter to the unemotional. I'm going to miss my little angel but you're in a better place. Farewell for now but we shall reunite one day. Love you always!

People take my blogs too seriously!

So I woke up this morning to a big ole "it's your fault." Ok let me explain awhile back a particular blog according to this person who shall remain anonymous. Why? Because the email name is anonymous with a bunch of bullshit behind it. So I decided to reply "what are you talking about?" Normally that's unacceptable on my part to engage with anyone. Little before I knew it they responded with a big ole "it's your fault you ruined my relationship." Wtf! I instantly thought to myself then anonymous with the extra shit behind it went into detail about how he took my advice and ran with it. Wait what advice? When did I say I'm anyone's advisor? When did I say live how I write? Who's to say any of my blogs are factual and not just random thoughts because I randomly think of thoughts the average person wouldn't dream of? In the great words of the joker "why so serious." I can't help you. I'm not dr. Phil pretending to be something in not tricking minds into taking his opinionated sometimes irrelevant points and actually making a career out of it. I don't write for you to follow when I go back to school and study psychology I might or if I ever just decide to write self help motivational books them your point would be valid and I would have to look further into scenarios like yours. the vivid picture you painted about your relationship is like I was apart of it. Wait was I apart of your made up relationship? Just kidding! Or am I? Who knows besides me no one so don't worry about it. My blogs are just that blogs one man's thoughts on subjects whether true or not. It's not a guideline on how to live your life!

Batman v Superman!

The first movie since Star Wars that I'm excited to see. I don't know what it is. I like them both. I grew up instantly a batman fan the cape crusader protecting the cold hearted streets of Gotham and a billionaire in his normal life. Who wouldn't want that lifestyle? All the women in the world that you want you can atleast get their attention. You can buy what you want, travel where you want and damn near do anything you want so why not be batman. Then I thought about it Superman the man of steel chasing Lois Lane the elegant beauty who's heart he must capture while trying to make his boss proud of him. His weakness? kryptonite! That to me is my problem with Superman and I don't know if I'll ever be able to get pass that. Anyways the movies coming and it has nothing to do with my thoughts but I'm just ready to watch this movie.

No matter what I did right by your name!

Being assigned your last name isn't something I care too much to brag about. You're apart of the reason why I'm even alive to begin with dad but where were you. You've been absent now you're gone and your absence is never ending now. No matter what I'm one of the last people on earth carrying your last name and I never tarnished it even though you gave me plenty of reasons to do so. I never in my life gave you a bad name and not because of you but because of my mother. You weren't ever there for me so my feelings for you or just like your existence in my life, absent. There's no care there's no emotions there's absolutely nothing there and I'm not to blame the blames fully on you. You weren't there. You weren't a father. You were absent. Therefore your legacy won't continue through me I'm building my own because you knew nothing about my God given abilities and that reason alone means your legacy won't live on through me you can find someone else who'll allow your legacy to live on through them because it damn sure ain't me.

"You forgot about me!"

"You forgot about me!" I don't understand some people. They get upset when you don't pick up the phone to call them but they have fingers and a phone too so why can't you call me wheres you're effort why do I have to give you my all. In addition to that I have a life. I'm not sitting there every morning thinking about the people i'm going to call today. If I don't talk to my siblings and my other closes relatives daily what makes you think I care to talk to you everyday? If the people on earth that matters the most to me I barely talk to then why do I have to talk to you everyday? People are emotional and selfish its like the world is getting more self absorbed every single day and I'm tired of it. I'm ready for this opportunity that just presented itself and God willing it'll go the right way. My goal is to travel, begin my own non profit organization for those in need and just help as many people worldwide as possible. People get so upset at Oprah for building schools and investing into certain parts of Africa when they feel she needs to do more over here. I don't blame her one bit this is the money she's earned so who in the hell can tell her how to spend it. My objective is to save lives and I'm currently working on building my non profit organization which will focus on specific individuals for example I plan on beginning my own organization to help wounded veterans, ill children and single mothers who can't provide for both themselves and their child/children. My mother was always a single parent who struggled at times so that means the world to me. I'm going to make a change in this world before my last breath and no ones going to stop me. So if you're wondering why I forgot about you. I forgot about you because I'm focused on making changes to my environment and the world abroad. Billions of people need help medically, financially or whatever and I'm going to do my best to provide as much assistance to those in need as possible.

It's a reason why! By: Omar Black

Its a reason why she messed with two guys and the guy she wanted to be the father isn't and the guy she didn't want to be the father is. Maybe that's the punishment you deserve for living the lifestyle you live. Maybe that good guy was too good for you. Maybe that bad guy is what you deserve. Maybe the hardships that he's going to put you through is your punishment for the sinful life you've been living. Who really knows? No one, everyone thinks they know. Everyone thinks whatever they believe in and however they think they believe is right. We live in a judgemental, hypocritical and prejudice world. It's a reason for everything and I'm still trying to figure my reasons.