Kate beckinsale!

I'm not gonna lie to you it's something about this woman that I just find attractive. Right behind her is Charlize Theron. Yeah I have my top five black, white, Hispanic and even Asian women list. Kate beckinsale just happens to fall on top of my hottest white women list. She's attractive, elegant, sexy and most importantly she carries herself with such grace and maturity that it makes her even more attractive to me. Im not going to say much besides she's just does it for me.

Kid or no kid you're the right woman for me!

I had my doubts due to past relationships with women with children. No relationship I've had in the past with a woman with a child or children have ever worked out for me until now. In the past I've dated women who were confused about whether they really can move on from their baby's father. I've  had conversations with women who've told me they've hooked up with their child's father on several occasions after they broke up. I've always thought about the fact that if there's one person on earth who a person can connect with it's the person they had a child with especially if they were in San actual relationship before they had their child. However my mindset has changed because of this woman particular woman who I'll refer to as heaven sent. She's the opposite of the girls that I've been dating prior to me meeting her. She's well educated, she's a woman and she handles her responsibilities. God has brought her into my life for a reason and he's brought me into her life for a reason. This woman is simply amazing and she's opened up my eyes so much so that I can truthfully say that her having a child is a positive instead of a negative. She's made me realize that if the love is there that's all I truly care for and I accept her child as much as I accept her. I can't win over her heart without winning over her child's heart and that's what I plan on doing. That's precisely what I will do because I've received a blessing who's opened my eyes up wider than it's ever been opened up. I thank the lord for blessing me with you. I'm grateful and I'm going to prove it to my soon to be queen that she's perfect and she's worth my time, energy, sweat, tears and most importantly my love.

I should turn my phone off for a month just to get rid of unnecessary people!

one thing about me is that I don't need anyone besides my sisters, my nieces my family and that significant other as long as she's completely invested in me. Sometimes I think turning my phone off would be a positive. I don't need my phone yeah emergencies can happen but most phones nowadays allow you to call 911 regardless if your phone is off or not. So I'm highly considering saying fuck my phone and just cutting off a bunch of people because I don't need you. You bring unneeded drama into my life. You involve me in your bullshit and I don't get it but it's all good. I have damn near seventy first cousins so truthfully I don't need friends so I don't need you!

You had a true friend but you lost Em!

Never in my life would I think the closes or one of the closes to me would think so negatively of me. It's all good though I'm an Aquarius this is who I am I bounce back and recover from every and all situations stronger and mentally greater than ever! You doubt me I show you you messed up! I have to be one of the nose generous kind hearted people on earth however people take that genuity and kindness to weakness and once I figure that out its a must I cut you the fuck off! You're nothing to me you're nonexistent I gotta be cut throat to you because you thought so badly of me when I give you no reason to think badly of me. I took someone out of nowhere to reveal the truth to me. It took someone to let me know what's up because instead of telling me straight up as a man you go behind me back but we homies though! You go behind my back but I'm your nigga you fuck with me a million obviously not if you think I'm such a terrible person you would have thoughts and assumptions about me and talking to others about your opinions of me when you should know it's gonna get back to me one way or the other. I just ask myself why pretend to Fuck with me? Why pretend that we're cool when you know that we're not? I'm doing me from now on and if I fuck with you I fuck with you but now I have a caution signal because niggas have motives nowadays. Niggas can't do things out of generosity like nigga what the fuck! You can't be real with me I can't fuck with you and that's a billion! It's do me season and I'm riding for me 100%. My girl I'm all in it for you as long as you're all in it for me! This is just the beginning of my amazing journey. Peace out for now "I'm gonna make it" like Jadakiss said.

I'm not going to lie I'm a kid at hearT

I don't care what you have to say when it comes to me I'm a kid at heart. I enjoy cartoons on occasion and playing video games. Do I reflect on my childhood and wish I could relive those moments of course I do. First of all I don't have to pay any bills and most importantly I get to relive the special moments I've had with my mother. May God continue to watch over her soul I love you mom! If there's any point in time that I can relive and stay stuck in that moment it would be my childhood not only because I have my mother who kept me safe, kept my stomach filled, kept a roof over my head and most importantly kept her love in my life. My mother is the definition of an Extraordinary woman. In addition to that I would get to relive those great moments in time that I shared with my sister who is an amazing woman and who is also courageous. I love you sis and if I've never said it before I'm saying it now you mean everything to me and you motivate me to be a great uncle to the nieces I have because you're a incredible mother to the children you have one of which is soon to be 4.0 high school graduate the other who is headed in the same direction and who knows maybe even stardom. I adore you sis. I'm a kid at heart I guess that's why I get along so well with all of my nieces. I understand them all and love and treat them all equally and with a ton of respect. I don't approach them as their father thats not who I am. I approach them as their big brother someone they can talk to about any and everything. Someone they know will be in their corner no matter what. I look at myself as a missing piece to the puzzle of a lot of people's happiness. If it's a void you need filled I'm that person. And for that special woman who entered my life recently I see nothing short of an amazing future with you. Let the journey begin.

Motives!

Why do people do things with a motive behind it? Why do people do things to benefit instead of just doing something just to help someone without any ulterior motive behind it. Perhaps there's only a few genuine people left on earth. The goal shouldn't be to benefit off of someone whenever you do them a favor however people do things with intent! I don't get it at all. But I know there's people who do and people who don't do things with intent. I do favors for people because I actually care to do them a favor. Can people stop being sneaky and start being real? If you have a motive behind a kind act and all I ask is that you be up front and tell me straight up I'm doing this because.... Don't hold it in and allow me to figure out that you're really doing me a favor or something for someone because you have motives behind it. You're just showing me that you're shady and I can't stand shady people. I don't get along well with artificial people that's why my circle stays small and I barely allow any new people into it. It sucks but it's real you must be cautious out here because people are fake. "Note to self people with motives behind their fake acts of kindness aren't the people you need to be around you." That goes for me and everyone else on this earth please share and may 2016 be filled with blessings for you and those around you. Happy New Years!

My New Years resolution is to be a better version of myself!

I can't recreate myself but j can better myself. A more spiritual, humble, understanding and most importantly a more caring person. I can be all of that and I will be. Some people belief in making drastic changes and to me other than weight loss everything else is going to take a great deal of time to change. I want to be a more spiritual person. I want and will work for a better relationship with the man upstairs because I am a good person and I will like to know more about my God. In addition to all of that I want to finally pursue full force my book and music dreams. No longer will I dream about them I'm going to make them a reality. It's time that I make things happen instead of making excuses. "Just do it!" The words utter repeatedly by one of my favorite actors of all time Shia Labeouf. Now watch me make it happen!!!!!