September 14, 2009

The worst day of my life! The day my life changed. My life was headed for so much promise so much hopes a deal on the table that would've been life altering but I decided to turn it down because I lost the most important person in my life. My mother. Mom I love you so much. September 14, 2009 a day that'll forever haunt me. Mom! With you I'm strong without you in fighting to maintain my strength. You taught me well I just wanted more time on earth with you. Time for you to see my first born, time for you to see me graduate from college, time for you to see me become a man. Although you're watching over me your physical presence was like none other. The greatest person ever is you. Loyal, kind hearted, sweet, generous, loving and just a great human being. In striving hard to reach your greatness. I miss you so much. I care for about you even more. I love you mom! God willing we shall unite one day in the future and it shall last for all eternity.

Moving seems like a good option!

I've thought it over for quite sometime and it's coming up to that time I set out for myself. I gave myself a two year limit from when I moved back to miami from another state. I told myself if I'm where I want to be I'll stay. The time is quickly approaching and I have yet to reach the goal I set out for myself ever since I returned back to Miami. Once that month hits I'm gone and it's on to the next state. It's hard to stay away from my home state but the time is coming where I need to make a choice to better my future. A new city in a new state seems like the best decision for me. I refuse to stay here and not achieve the gwhat I set out for myself to

DAMN!

Life see life all I can say to you is DAMN!

I agree with Skip Bayless take kicking out of the game of football!

Im sick and tired of watching great or potentially championship winning teams lose a game because of a kicker. Your entire season resides on the foot of a kicker who's been sitting down and pretending to stretch on the sideline during the entire game while you put your all into every play smashing into your rival over and over again just to benefit your team. Imagine having your entire season rest on the foot of a kicker. Every season it seems to be not just one big game but multiple big games that's lost on the foot of a kicker. I would lose my cool and explode and unleash my anger in the direction of the kicker who lost the game because they couldn't make a kick. A kick that would've extended our season. A kick that would've put us one game closer to the championship. Kicks ruin momentum. Look at the Redskins they were up 11-0 nothing today against the packers the missed the kick and went downhill from there. No ones talking about that but that's what happened. Dudes were on the sidelines saying he missed the extra point are you kidding me. He missed an automatic practice all of the time kick. Trust me those were the thoughts of some of those players and it showed in how effortlessly Greenbay came back. Don't get me wrong Aaron Rodgers is the best quarterback in the league you can't shut him out however you can't tell me that the missed extra point kick didn't have something to do with it. I know it did period. I don't need to do any interviews or write about it over and over again just to get some attention I know it contributed to why washington lost today. Hey NFL do us all a favor and get rid of kicking in football the only kicking needed is the kick offs but with the many concussed athletes who get concussions on kick off we may need to say enough is enough and let's get rid of kick in football. It'll be weird at first but sooner than later we will all get used to it.

Crying on the sideline!

Is it right? Is it wrong? When a man tears his acl, breaks a bone in their body and suffers a season ending injury is it acceptable for them to cry on the sideline? How can you judge a man who's gonna spend the next six months to a year of his life rehabbing? A man who's being taken Away from the sport they know all too well and loves too much? You're not gonna deal with the rehabilitation they're gonna have to go through. You're not gonna be told you're gonna get cut or traded away because of an injury. People don't see things from that player's point of view when I do. The only exception if it's a player who's prone to injury. It gets to the point where you have to give up on him. There's no other choice but to cut ties with that player. Regardless of how good of a person they are. But when it's that vet who's contract is expiring or that rookie who's been on the bench all season until four weeks ago when they made that game changing play now they're on the up and up. However now they're facing a season and possibly career ending injury. An injury that might halt their career. An injury that might prevent them from feeding their family for quite sometime. An injury that might put them out of their league and place them in a position where they must work a normal 9 to 5 just to get by. That's when that college degree comes in handy some may say. But let's be realistic not everyone is built to stand up to the roadblock better known as college. I don't know but if a man suffers an injury and goes to the sideline and cries once they find out what the injury is or just the pain they're dealing with then it's not my place to say if it's right or wrong for a man to cry on the sideline.

I see the world from everyone's perspective!

This is why I'm different I'm not one track minded I never have and I will never be. I know how it is to have it all and I know how it is to not have anything and anyone at all. I understand the pain of a man who hasn't eaten in three days and I understand the triumph of being able to pay the bills of both you and your girlfriend without ever worrying about how much the bills cost. I'm a writer in required to see the world from everyone's point of view. I'm also a person who's seen it all and done it all in only twenty six years of living. I'm not one track minded like a lot of you people living on this earth. I'm opinionated but I can understand the opinions and beliefs of others. But I'll still challenge your beliefs if you challenge mines. Open up your mind people and know that this world just isn't all about you in fact it's all about you and the rest of the people on earth so when you really think about it you probably don't even matter that much well you actually don't matter that much!

What happened if everything we ever thought was true really doesn't exist?

I don't like living by the what ifs but sometimes in life you have to sometimes in life you have no choice. What if everything in life that you thought was right really just doesn't exist to begin with? Religion ended something that could've been incredible in my life. So I have to ask that question what if her beliefs just is inaccurate? What if her thoughts on everything through the mind of a higher being just doesn't matter or even exist? It's probably over for good I have hope but I have to be realistic. I can't tell her what to do I can control her in anyway the only thing that I can do is lay everything out there but I'm no match for a person's religious beliefs. I just hope that one day it's discovered that we can make it work and there's nothing wrong with us attempting to make us workout. I have hope and I know you do too!