It's me here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can I ask you a question? Why not me? I am the right person for you but for some reason the women I know that will be right for me don't see it. I end up falling for and being with the women that I know aren't any good for me. The women that I already know are no good for me but for whatever reason I stay with them or I keep falling for the same kind of women. Women make the wrong decision when it comes to men. They choose the flashy no good guys instead of the one guy who is perfect for them like me. So I can't do anything besides shake my head when they end up all alone as a single mother. Give the good guys a shot I'm right here!

Finding love

Love comes to those who don't want it while the people who yearn for it wait their whole lives waiting to find that one person who'll change their life for the better. Life stinks and thats the only way that I can put it. I can't believe how hard it is just to find love. I've been waiting for twenty six years which some people will say thats not that long but I think its an eternity. Ive been waiting and waiting for the perfect girl from me and I believe in my heart that I've found the right woman for me. Ive always been good with women and Ive never really been the type of guy to go too long without a girlfriend. But I've always been a helpless romantic. I believe in love. I believe in everyone having the perfect match which is why Ive always been the type of guy to want the right woman. I don't need a thousand girls just give me the one right girl that equals a million girls. Only time will tell but i will find the right woman for me.

Single women like married men.

What attracts some women to pursue a man that is already married to someone else? Maybe it's the thrill of pursuing someone who has already been pursued. Marriage is serious but it seems as though no one takes it serious anymore. No one respects values anymore because its all about sex. Therefore in recent years the number of one night stands have skyrocketed to an unbelievably large rate. I can't believe the amount of women I have come across in recent years who have willingly discussed their flames with married men. They have no shame and they refuse to deny the fact that they engaged in an intimate relationship with a man who was married. It's not for me to judge because I too am a sinner but I find it strange that anyone would be willing to discuss their relations with someone who's married with someone they barely know. I guess its life and its the new generation thats caring less and less about it.

Should i date myself?

The goal in life is to find happiness whether your happiness is money or if your happiness involves finding your true love. Mines of course is both. But I pose the question should I date myself meaning should I date the female version of me? I know my flaws and I know all of the positives i bring to the table. I love writing and I am extremely creative. I believe in true love and I feel that I may have met the perfect girl for me who shares the same interests as I do and who also shares the same similarities that I share. The problem is do I find myself attractive meaning would I date someone that is just like me when the old saying goes "opposites attract." Normally I tend to fall for women that are both loud and obnoxious to everyone around me except for me. Ive always found girls that are blunt and upfront to be sexy because they have no filter however none of those relationships have lasted for more than two or maybe three years. That is quite sometime however none of those relationships have ever led to anything more than just a longterm relationship. I want to fall in love and not to say that I didn't fall in love with any other those loud and obnoxious women Ive date in my past but truthfully I couldn't see myself spending the remainder of my life with just them. However i have to live with myself so theres no running from me at all. I have to deal with my flaws. I have to deal with all of my positive and negative tendencies and there's nothing i can do about it. So why not find the female version of me? Why shouldn't i pursue the one woman thats exactly like me? I'm going to do it because of the simple fact that the women that are the complete opposite of myself those relationships have yet to workout. So I'm diving in head first into this relationship with this beautiful young lady and I will see what happens. I know her love is worth my time so I will give her my all and given that she's just like me I know she will do the same. So I'm going to find out whats going to happen and I will keep you all updated.

 Until next time folks! lol. Enjoy your lives.                                

Y.O.L.O.

The saying plenty of people live by. Yes it's true we only live once but some people are going beyond overboard with this saying. Personally I believe in living life to the fullest. There's somethings that i never imagined myself doing until I grew in age and in maturity. However sometimes you just have to understand that somethings can only happen once and that opportunity may never present itself again so thats the reason why people only live once. It's a saying thats not that old however people have been living by this saying for quite sometime now. Age doesn't matter when it comes to this saying neither does a person's life experience because sometimes you just have to live life without worrying about the consequences that may present itself. Theres things in life I would never attempt to do because i know how deadly the consequences of my actions maybe on the other hand someone else may look at that same situation differently. Therefore they may feel the need to take that risk that others may not be willing to do. You only live once and thats a saying that will be debated until the cow's jump over the moon. Living life on the edge isn't for everyone therefore plenty of people will disagree with this saying so it shouldn't be debated at all. All i can say is live life how you want to live your life.

My friends mean more to me than some of my family!

The harsh reality of becoming an adult is that you realize that the people who are supposed to mean the most to you are the people who'll turn their back on you the quickest. I am learning that reality now as I'm twenty five years old but I should have known this when I was ten. My family would rather talk down upon me instead of uplift me and do their best to help me become a better man. They would rather destroy me verbally than help me succeed. I guess that's just my harsh reality. I can't believe the nonsense I have gone through the past month. It's as though no one cares besides a few family members all of which I have never verbally insulted directly or indirectly to anyone other than myself. my OPINIONS OF People remain with ME just someone I CAN'T STAND. Unless that person and I just don't like each other one but then I don't mind badmouthing them in public or in private. My friends have had my back ever since I was in elementary school and they continue to have my back up until this day. See with friends I can pick and choose which ones I want to be in my life when it comes family I can't and more times than not I wish I could choose the members of my family because I would swap places with them and my friends. And if I could do that then no longer would they be my friends because of their actions I wouldn't want anything to do with them.I choose friends over most of my family and that will not change ever. 

The things I have been looking for are the things I don't need. The things I haven't been looking for are the things I need.

I'm not seeking love not because I don't believe I need it it's just not something I care for. I'm avoiding relationships because I am avoiding love at a time when I need it the most. I don't understand it at all. I have been living my life pursuing the things that I don't need when I should have been pursuing the things that I do my best to avoid. I should be pursuing a career as a writer but I have been worrying about temporarily hustling to make enough money just to get by day to day. I'm a writer. I have been put on this earth to write but for whatever reason it's what I have avoided my entire life. The things that are necessities are the things that I avoid the most. The things that aren't that important to my livelihood are the things that for whatever reason I have been pursuing the most. Women, making money fast and just partying to have fun that will only last a few hours. I don't get it what am I programmed this way. I am twenty five years old and I have been living that kind of lifestyle for twenty five years now it's time that I stop it. I can no longer live my life pursuing things that do not matter to me. The necessities are what will make me happy like falling in love. I don't care who you are we all need it. However the most important necessity in my life is being a published author which has been my dream for more than a dozen years now. It's time that I make my dream a reality and I will do that by waking up from my dream and pursuing my goals without allowing anyone or anything to get in my way. I have always allowed other people's issues to get in the way of my own. When someone needed money I gave them the money they needed even in situations where I needed the money just as bad. I have any children and I'm not indebted to anyone therefore I am only living for me. The people who I thought I meant the most to are the people who are turning their backs on me first. Therefore I'm living for me and no one else. My problems comes first. My life goals will come before anyone else's. You can call that selfish well I've been the opposite way until this day and that hasn't gotten me anywhere. Now it's time that all changes.